Alone as always....

I don't know what the hell is my problem..... what ever I earn am loosing it twice faster ..  But now I think ,I came to know that its the demon in me that doing everything... Yes I don't know how to talk & behave . I hate this fucking world who treats.. being open minded and expressive , as a crime .... "Change yourself , you know, you need to change a lot".....sorry to say I don't even know what I need to change.....!!!!  

I treat and talk to everyone from my own point of view...""BIG MISTAKE"

On everything... I don't know about anything anymore, it seems like whenever I need help no one is there or someone just makes it worse... honestly, I feel like I'm drowning, and I don't even know if I can be helped anymore...I give up. Usually, I wouldn't say things like this, but right now, I feel empty & hopeless and just... I can't even think about positive shit anymore.... I just give up on everything.. why do I bother trying, nothing good ever happens to me anyways, I am truly alone & hopeless......

BLANKNESS.......