ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY

Lots of things I wish to say 
I think about you every day
I miss your laugh
I miss your smile
Neither lost nor forgotten...
I imagine them often

It just doesn’t seem real that you’re not around
I’ll never forget  the 26th of October...
As I sat on the bed, tears filled my eyes….
I found myself looking for you…..
Until I realized what was true...

I will never again see your wave and your smile...
We won’t stand on the street and visit for a while…
No visiting to cool bar.. no cigarettes with thumps up with u….
No “what are you doing tonight” or “I’ll see ya tomorrow”…
All of these things, I cherish so dearly …
In my heart, I remember so clearly…


I still talk to you ...
I know you can hear me…
Today I spoke of you and before I finished my sentence….
I could feel your presence...
Then .. a coincidence, or was it a sign?
The song that reminds me of you began to play…
“pehali nasar mein” …. With strumming
As If you knew I was thinking of you this day...
I smiled.. feeling you were there with me …
Again... I sat remembering…
Tears filled my eyes as I listened to the song.
But this time I accepted that you are gone.

Its getting an year..
Seems like forever….
I’ve asked myself and I’ve talked to God…..
How could he take you away for so long?
The only answer that makes any sense is ….
You’re in God’s hands now… 
As he planned
Watching us from above…
An Angel in heaven who will always be loved.....

BLANKNESS.........